Its 2am and all I’m thinking about is you. I know your not thinking about me but the way we ended needs to be resolved, I long your touch I crave your kiss looking at videos of you just doing everyday activity makes me cry. I Face timed you today you looked so sexy it made me realize who I fail in love with but most of all the touch I long for. I planned on a wonderful Sunday and I wonder should I send you your scavenger hunt.
So I sent the scavenger hunt. First stop is the very first place we went on a date. Hopefully you don’t stand me up, Sunday morning comes I do my hair half up half down cause that’s exactly how you love it. As I step out the shower listening to Sammie I wonder what to wear but then I realize you have never complained about anything I wear so I go to the closet and pull out that little red dress. As I put the Victoria secret bra and underwear on that you bought me. I put lotion on every part of my body making sure not to miss a spot. Spraying the bath and body works and killer queen combo you go crazy over. You told me that you could smell me with your eyes closed in a room full of people so I figure why not put that to use tonight. I slide on this little red dress and put these red pumps on a necklace and a naked finger hopefully if all goes good I leave with something on it or going to be.
I get in the car and as I drive I pray you show up I blocked you so I hope you show. As I pull up I look at the parking lot no car in sight then my heart drops. I start to cry but then I realize for once in my life I’m early. As I walk in the waitress ask my name and as I’m seated she ask what I would like to drink. Two shots of Hennesy to get the edge off. I throw back both of the shots not thinkng of the consequence since my ass has not eaten yet. 30 minutes goes by and it’s time for you to show. I sit contemplating my next move, I realize my palms are sweating the suspense is real…. 5min later the curtain opens… It’s the waitress asking me if I needed anything I ask for another shot. Couple minutes later she comes back with two more shots I ask her to make sure my other party hasn't gotten lost I check my phone your 10 min late. That’s new but I’m still having hope. I take my shot of Hennesy and then I look its been 30 min I get that feeling of abandonment. As I receive the food I pre-ordered and purchased I start to eat and wonder when did you fully give up. What did I do that was so bad and what was the moment you gave up that I missed out on seeing. I cry and eat, eat and cry and. The waitress sits and tells me I’m gorgeous and I’ll be okay. Crazy part is the restaurant is closed. I tip and get your food to go since it wasn't touched. As I walk out to my car I drop my keys and as I come up I realize I had other things set up so I run to the car and zoom to the second part of the scavenger hunt.
I get in the car and I play the whole Ella Mai CD and scream cry singing thank god I don't have makeup on because I would not be cute anymore lol so I get to the park and I wonder why you didn’t show as I walk to collect the photos for you to find and get back in my car this night has not went as planned at all. As I drive home I pass by the exit to go to your house but I know if I go and your not home or you come out I just will embarrass myself even more. Why did I think a scavenger hunt to find love again was a good idea. Who does that. I have to give up and as I cry and drive and drive and cry I tell myself to let it go
When I pull up I sit in the car because I’m a lot drunker than I thought I was an I cant move. The music is still loud and my neighbors are probably annoyed. I go in the house finally after 6 min of crying and doorbell rings… I’m thinking its the police and I open the door it’s you…..
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