I’ve never been the chaser, or the beggar. But things have change. Life’s changed peoples changed the dates changed! An obviously that’s my title for this chapter of my life. I used to give so much advice on things when now I kind of need a me for me. Who helps the person who helps everyone when they are down? I never knew how it felt to want someones undivided attention so bad an they not want to give it to you. More things excite them. A flower sitting on the ground is more exciting then you starting a conversation. It hurts when you know you can try your hardest an even go above your hardest an nothing you do will EVER be good enough. Longing for attention makes your 4pm afternoon seem like it’s been 24hrs. Wishing you got a fast reply to a text message has you questioning your self worth. Cry’s in the shower bringing your self estem down because why am I not enough? That question defeating you like a game of mortal kombat!!
Sometimes hearing “WHY” will only make it worse. You can ask Why could I never make you happy? Why could you never fight that hard for me? Why? Why? An why? But the question is do you really want to know why? Now honesty I’m sure you’ve thought about the answer an have came up with the truth already. You just don’t want to face it.
YES THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE SOMEONES OPTION WHEN ITS CONVENIENT FOR THEM.
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