Forbidden Fruit

I’ve been the strong one for so long that I don’t know how to submit. The submissive woman in me has been tucked away behind a hard exterior for so long but as soon as that shower turns on the water works fall. Working on myself I realized I have to let go what I THINK I should be an start being who I actually am. I’m a soft ass thug. Meaning don’t cross me I’ll fight you but imma cry while doing it because it’s more so the principle… my feelings is hurt stink. The real me is seductive passionate affectionate but in my relationships I’ve always been the bread winner the foundation, furniture the utilities even the ppl living in it. I’m tired sway. Like coach TAKE ME OUT THE GAME.

Tag you are it because I’m NOT! I want to sit back an watch my soul mate drive me around. I want to watch my soul mate say babe this is what it is an I’m yes babe. No I’m not a puppet but shit can I be!! Y’all I’m serious. I need a me for me. A strong soul who I know when I fall you gonna catch me an never let me go. When I’m down your right there. As open as I am you are too. I want to set the mood for you to walk into a clean house shower an your food is on the table. I step out in some lingerie smelling amazing an of course looking better. See the meal you ate was just a appetizer because I’m dinner an dessert!! I want to know I am my soul mates everything as my person is mine! I want to submit.

2022 I lost the love of my life an gained another. I gained me. The me who understands she is strong an can do it on her own again but also knows she doesn’t want too. I gained the me who understands her flaws an is working towards clarity an understanding. The me who I should have been all along but was so scared to be because I didn’t want to get hurt again. Realizing that being the pre fabricated me brought me heartbreak too… so why not just be me?! Authentically.

To any woman who has it all but wants more. Put your pride aside an love ME unconditionally! But allow others to love the real you! It’s ok to take a L, it’s ok to cry because with every L a tear you win! Another blessing is going to come another smile. Positivity is a gift within its self. An I manifest love clarity an true happiness into me!

Looking back to see how far I’ve come. I fight daily to over come the struggles of my past but it’s the whispers the universe will speak that will make me Submissively Me.