Things don’t un-break just because you want them too. It takes time to put it back together.
In my relationship I feel loved physically. You can tell the way I look, smell, taste, and act has my partners spidey senses aroused. So physically I AM pleased!! Emotionally I am falling apart. I don't feel like I'm heared at all. Unless I'm screaming and giving unnecessary energy to an issue. I'm tired of putting ME on the back burner to make my mate happy. Always holding on and being belittled when I should get way more respect than that. I have to put me first and STOP prolonging the month to a season.
Beating a dead horse to try and get it to gallup again will never work cause the life is drained and the horse is dead. I'm that horse but also I'm the owner that's beating it telling it to go a little further. Give a little more. You can do it!! When in all reality the horse is DEAD. That saying goes for any life event rather a friendship, relationship or family-ship.
I want a Jay to my Beyonce a Miranda to my Carrie a Will to my Grace. I want to give my all to someone and know that it is not taken for granted and overlooked or misunderstood. What if your mate told you this…. An I quote “Go fuck with your basic ass bitches that's all you want, you don't want me I'm stupid to think that you ever did. You never claimed me, believe me my wife will claim me. My eyes are open to what you are doing. You lie so much to make me think you want me and that's false. Your a piece of shit an bitch I mean it so fuck you.”
Now nobody not even your mate truly knows how you feel about them because you can tell someone how you feel but it's never the full thing that would take a lifetime to do because feelings change daily. Weather in a good direction or a bad one. So who are you to tell me how I feel? Who are you to analyze my love and tell me I don't care? When in all reality I do want this, I DID claim you I wanted that wife title but just was tired of the belittling an the down playing of my feelings the I want you but steady entertaining your ex. Using a child that's not even yours to keep in contact with her. But I'm the piece of shit right?
Arguments are going to happen but when you start to say things that SORRY won't fix, the relationship is dead. Everyone has a breaking point I have reached mine with this relationship. Your so perfect and you do nothing wrong at all so the next woman you get with will be so happy right?
Well sorry to tell you your far from the best thing someone can gain. You see everyone else's flaws but your own. I poor out my heart an soul and after that its always well you did this. Wait mf how did this get turned on me when your the one who fucked up? Wtf am I apologizing for? FIX MY ISSUE is all I can say but it NEVER got fixed. Not even til this day! I put up with more shit then the average woman would put up with. I'm not perfect by far I had my flaws but unlike you I fixed and changed an GREW!
Hopefully your her peace and wont kick her when she already down! Uplift your queen not dethrone her when she needs you the most.
You can only talk an treat someone bad for so long before they reach a breaking point and when they reach that point ain't no coming back. I've always been the strong one the one who at the end of the relationship moved on after my ex did because it was always that “what if” BUT at this day in age I'm not doing the “What if” anymore. If we break up we broken up FOR GOOD!
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