DETHRONE

Things don’t fix just because you want them too. It takes time to put it back together.

In my relationship I feel loved physically. You can tell the way I look, smell, taste, and act has my partners' senses aroused. So physically I AM pleased!! Emotionally I am falling apart. I don't feel like I'm heard at all. Unless screaming and giving unnecessary energy to an issue. I'm tired of putting ME on the back burner to make my mate happy. Always holding on and being belittled when I should get way more respect than that. I have to put myself first and STOP prolonging the month to a season.

Beating a dead horse to try and get it to gallup again will never work because life is drained and the horse is dead. Im that horse but also i'm the owner that's beating it telling it to go a little further. GIve a little more. You can do it!! When in all reality the horse is DEAD. That saying goes for any life event rather a friendship, relationship or family-ship.

I want a Jay to my Bey a Miranda to my Carrie a Will to my Grace. I want to give my all to someone and know that it is not taken for granted and overlooked or misunderstood. What if your mate told you this…. An I quote “Go fuck with your basic ass bitches thats all you want you dont want me stupid to think that you ever did. You never claimed me, believe me my wife will claim me. My eyes are open to what you are doing. You lie so much to make me think you want me and that's false.” Now nobody not even your mate truly knows how you feel about them because you can tell someone how you feel but it's never the full thing that would take a lifetime to do because feelings change daily. Weather in a good direction or a bad one. So who are you to tell me how i feel? Who are you to analyze my love and tell me i don't care? When in all reality you do want this, you DID claim them you wanted that wife title but just was tired of the belittling an the down playing of your feelings.

Arguments are going to happen but when you start to say things that SORRY won't fix, the relationship is dead. Everyone has a breaking point. I have reached mine with this relationship. You're so perfect and you do nothing wrong at all so the next woman you get with will be so happy right? Well sorry to tell you you're far from the best thing someone can gain. Hopefully you're her peace and wont kick her when she's already down! Uplift your queen, not decrown her when she needs you the most.

You can only treat someone bad for so long before they reach a breaking point and when they reach that point aint no coming back. I've always been the strong one who at the end of the relationship moved on after my ex did because it was always that “what if” BUT at this day in age im not doing the “What if” anymore. If we break up we break up FOR GOOD!